Why is it thati know it is so impossible to suceed and yet i still go for it risking it all ?

Why do i want to stab myself in the heart when i know it'll hurt ?          

What is happiness to me ? Have i gotten the wrong concept of happiness ?                   

Why cant i stop thinking about u ?

So many 'Whys' but no answer~~~~~~~~~~

Finally holidays are gonna end and school gonna start.. not that i really look forward to it or watever... juz bored stoning at home..Today is a really really boring day.. at home play game and chat with friends.. . want to go out but no where to go.. sad sia..

Liverpool won the Champions league... gratz to them for being able to win the title =D

24th May

Woke up at about 9++ cannot sleep sia.. too excited about my plan ... den after that i went to orchard to find my friend.. special mission lor.. mai siao siao.. went to wisma for a walk.. a few times... den later i met up with my friend .. den we was about to leave when we saw my friend smoking outside wisma.. so i went over and say 'hi'  and ask for her number.. hehe =D

At nite i ask her to go for dinner / supper after her work... about 11 i guess.. went to eat at esplanade ... the food there is very good.. u shld try it too :p

23th May

Went to meet my friend at bugis in the afternoon ... play arcade for a few hours den we WALK .. ya its walk to park lane ... omg.. so far lor.. >.< .. but didnt really feel the distance as we were talking all the way there.. after we reach there we went arcade to play again.. sian.. i getting sick of arcade soon.. everytime go out always go arcade de.. like really no life like wat one of my classmate says... 

After that we went to plaza sing to eat bk.. long time nv eat there liao so dont really mind.. somemore got discount.. so quite worth it.. i miss their free side order promotion... =\ . recently i keep hanging out at PS .. dunno y also =\ maybe soon there will be my 2nd home..

hehe.. long time never update cos i kinda busy.. so today i shall be updating it on my last 3 days at my friends chalet.

28th April

Today morning i woke up about 9:40am .. the guy in charge came about 10 to check see whether we got take any of things from the chalet b4 we could check out.. My friends and i parted at about 11+ , then since my friends car was full me and other of my friend took the shuttle bus to the bus stop to go home.

Just  reached home from from my friend chalet at Paris ris. Hmm.. kinda tired due to my lack of sleep for the past 2 days.. Also abit hungry .. nv really eaten well at the chalet .. =\

27th April

2nd day at chalet.. My friends and i went out in the morning to go eat and play some arcade since there wasnt anybody who was gonna cook for lunch.. Went burgerking to eat... den play abit of arcade den we went back chalet.. chalet actually quite far from downtown east.. When we reach back chalet i continued to play the PS den some people  wanted to play so we discided to rotate..

in the after my friend who drive bought me and another friend to the arcade to play again =\

At night had bbq .. alot of my classmate came...den the food like cook liao den people eat so fast. so i deside to go to eat outside with my other friend.

Wanted to sleep early but couldnt due to champions league match ... eventually bth den go sleep at abt 6am..

26th April

w000t.. finally the day is here for my friends chalet .. meet my friend at abt 1:40 to meet him den we went to sengkang to meet another friend where we took a bus to the chalet..

For dinner we had steamboat .. quite alright la.. but the weather so hot .. den eat steamboat.. -_-" abit sian..After that i was tricked to go to the pool by my friends where they ambush and PUSH me to the pool.. -_-" the worst part was that i didnt know hw to swim so i sank like a rock..strugle abit den realise the pool only 1.6m and i could actually stand in it -_-".. =\

My friend and i could sleep so we played PS all night =X

Today , I went to Suntec and Raffles city with my friend at about 2pm , cause he wants to buy some shirts or something like that. We walk for awhile then after that we went to the arcade to play games.  At the arcade got a lot of bully.. >_< they play against other people lose then come and bully me -_-“  but I also got challenge some people and win too =D so not such a bad outing to the arcade after all.

After that I went home , then I went out again to eat then after that I come back home , to watch the NKF show then play abit of DotA  ..

That’s about it for today ..

Today hor.. sibei sian .. nothing to do.. whole day at home.. play games and watch tv nia -_-"'

sian..i go sleep liao...

Today , go to PS at abt 12pm with my friends .. played abit of arcade at Star Factory den i went down to Zone X to meet them.. play abit of initial D den about 2 we went Burger King to have lunch..

After that we went to parklane to play Lan games .. My fren say we need some practice before our DotA compeition (-_-") .. play about 3 rounds of DotA .. all win =X people at the lanshop weren't as organise as our team .. cost mi $8.50.. didnt know there the rate is $2.5 per hr.. ZzzZz

Abt 6:00 reach home..

Now back to playing games =)